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Jul. 11th, 2006 | 01:24 am
location: home
mood: tired tired
music: Skunk Anasie - Carmen Queasy

i got to thinking today about how long we can go without loving someone.
i mean ive gone over a year now without having sex/loving someone,
and although i thought it would be a major struggle with me, ive found it quite easy.
although i know people have different points of breaking, and whats to stop some one that hasn't
sex for that long becoming A-sexual (where a person doesn't like love and and can go without loving someone.)
where do you draw the line when it comes to the time in between?

i hear all these people complaining everyday "ooooh i haven't had it in a couple of weeks"
so what!! i haven't had it in over a year and you dont see me complaining!
how can we gauge how long one single person can go without having sex.
some people stay virgins all their lives, but haven't yet tasted what sex is like,
and therefore will not need the same amount of love that a regular sexual active person would.
you can't miss something you've never tried, as they say.

there have been points over this long year that i've thought fuck!!!!! i need a good shaggin !!
but i'm not sure that i need love as the next regular joe does, because it hasn't been there for a long time,
you grow used to not having it, and therefore you dont need it. you can yearn for it, and seek it,
but you will never really get it untill your ready to accept the fact that life just doesn't revolve around sex.

trust me my re-virginity isn't through getting my cock chopped off, being ina rural village all on my ownsome
doesn't help that, and thats why i think, it doesn't affect me, because its not in my face 24/7.
although i see it on the all the media levels, you dont think of it as sex, you see it as an ad campaign.
its also not the fact ive gone off sex, i mean i love the thing, but i don't need soome one to love me to survive the surrealism of
normal life.

don't get me wrong i think people in love is the most amazing thing in the world, and your sex life is your own
you can own it or do whatever you will with it.

but i guess what im trying to say is, i dont need a guy to survive anymore, ive found indpendence in sexual frustration,
its a liberating experience not having to think of someone else all the time, or worrying what my partner might
think of my behaviour, i am my own and thats it.

i haven't got another person growing out of me, and i certianly dont need one to survive, its just me growing.
im not activly seeking love, im waiting for it to come to me
and although that maybe a long wait, i dont care because i know, that when it comes
it will be mind blowing. but ill still be craig, not craig + (*partners name)
ill still be me, and i wont change for the person i with, because that person should be with me, for me,
and not because he can see the possibilty of change.

in effect to this whole update;
i guess im just one sexless guy waiting for cupid to finally shot me with his arrow.

*edit*
i'm now working 7 days a week, and helping out with everything i can! how much butt licking does one guy have to do, to get a raise around here
*second thoughts - ask for one!*
although i do get 24 hours off, just not in a big 'ole block, just spread out over a week!
god ive done too much butt licking !
but still i want a pay rise!

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Jun. 24th, 2006 | 01:15 pm

okay so im totally bored and have nothing to do except binge eat on junk food, lmao!oooooooooooooh
i brought a really nice bag yesterday in llandudno, its really hott !
its like a skull and crossbones (a4 size) with wings coming off it, and its got some writing on it !
its really really really nice !
have got work tonight !
its going to be busy and i cant be arsed with it !
hahahaha!
why is my life so funfilled !!!
lol im off
im going to buy more junk food!

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Jun. 20th, 2006 | 02:59 pm

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One Month Craig, Thats All You Get.

Jun. 15th, 2006 | 02:16 pm

okay so my mum has give me an ultimatum!!!
clean up my act or move out, all in a month.
but i'm like not bad, i dont know what she thinks of me
but it obviously not what i think of myself.
she calls me selfish, just because ive gone out and got drunk a little bit more that i should of this week
and about money aswell, shes always blaggin meh head about that!
i got paid like £170 for this week, i gave her £50 and spent the rest on myself, admittidly a little stupid to waste that money but its my money i work for it !
and shes going on about all these bills i have to pay and all this shit!
and im just like FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCK!
i cant deal with all this shit shes throwing at me !
and i do wanna move back down south!
fuck my job, fuck all the people i know, fuck the things ive worked hard for !
fuck it all
i wanna move!

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Jun. 13th, 2006 | 04:39 pm

yo whats going on guys?
me, not much
just working !
and thats about it really!
there is like nothing to do in this little village!
damn the envy of city life!

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Jun. 4th, 2006 | 12:38 am
location: AT HOME ON THE SOFA!!
mood: bouncy bouncy
music: Full Blown Rose - Somebody Help Me

Yo Everybody!
im a little widdled !
lol !
just finished work and i had a few drinks after work !
A FEW TOO MANY !!!!!!1111
hhehehehheheh!
LOVE IT
and i had a game off ppool aswell and i cheated ! alot !!!!! LMAO
i was playing against a girl and i ws losing
so what can ya doooo!
LOL drunk is fun!
and plus i got drunk for like 2 pounds!
lol, some ppl brought me a drink
and then i had a staff one, a very large staff one!!
and then i brought myself a malibu and coke, but i acidentally put like 3 shots in there heeeehhhehehhehe!
OOOOOOOOPPPPPPPPPHS meh bad!!!!
LOVE ITTTTTTTTTTTTTTT!

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Jun. 2nd, 2006 | 03:28 pm

Woooooooooooooooh
work tonight
at 5pm till 1am
i am a bar man
unsociable hours are my calling
LOVE IT!
and i'm working with kirsty which is better, cos we get on really well, its so funny, were always giggilin!
and im trying to find myself a nice man !
its difficult but im rocking the single status life!
not very well, but still LOL !
well im off i have to get ready,
its going to be a long night, fun but........long!

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Jun. 1st, 2006 | 12:55 pm

live journal update -
well it was my bday on the 23.05. and i finally got what ive always asked for. A LAPTOP
love it !!
i was so pleased ! i was like screaming in the pub when i opened my present !
kudos to mum and dad for actually buying me what i want this year!
life is going well, i am loving it !
i'm working in the local pub now, its so much better in there than in the last place
they are so much more appreciative in there and its just a generally nice place to work
and plus i know so much more people from my village because of it !
i went out for lunch on my birthday, it was so nice i had a great big rump steak.
theres like so much i have to update on but ive forgotten most of it because i haven't updated
in so long, which i am very sorry for !
OMG big news !
my dads crazy girlfriend has been sectioned, so shes now in a mental home!
shes been section for 28 days minimum, and after the doctors have done their tests her length of stay
will be decided, and personally i think it should be for a long, long, long, time !
the crazy bitch !
hahaha! LOVE IT !
im at my dad's house now cos im down here for a couple of days but i left on friday so i was
like down here for a week and a day!
it was weird, but it was okay i guess.
i had fun and had a good night out with my gal LORNA!
it was fun and we had like a pitcher of sangria - it was really yummy!
and for my birthday she got me a fantastic necklace i absolutly love it
SO THANNNNNNNNNNNNK YOU!!!
right thats me over for a couple of days,
and i shall update some time soon
Lub's ya'll
Lubs
Craigyb

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Nov. 19th, 2005 | 11:36 am

so im back in gosport for a little while and it is utterly crap crap crap !
but on a plus note im round lornas house !
theres not mucho going on right now !
nothing to report
boring boring boring!
im even yawning its that fun!
i still hate this place with a passion (gosport i mean)
its not a nice place !
i wanna go home but still i cant untill wednesday ( and its saturday now!)
i have a new job im not sure if ive updated it allready but imma barman !
which is sooooooo fun ! i have a new tattoo (not sure if i told ya)
its like 3 stars going down a milkyway kinda thing !
its hot and hopefully im getting a new one today !
a butterfly on my left wrist
well gotta go

imma going to get it done now
lubs yall
lubs
craig

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Oct. 15th, 2005 | 03:01 pm

hey everyone !
uber boring break from work !
like what do they expect me to do for two hours !
i mean dont get me wrong i love to shop but when u cant be asked there is like nothing else
to do !
dumbass village !
hahahhaha
well nothing new to report just work work work, drink drink drink!
yay for that !

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